I was thinking I wish I could have all my kids with
me today and be in a cozy warm house while the wind howled outside
and the snow blew in drifts. Then I remembered the time we were all
in GA reading , was it Grey's Landing? Bobby's play, and poor Wendall
was the only audience. And I thought, I'd even take that night, and,
suddenly, it was clear to me how people could insist on keeping
someone they loved alive even if they knew the person was miserable.
I think maybe if we knew ahead of time what it would be like we might
never let go of anybody.
Since I've lived in this apartment, sometimes when I
half wake in the middle of the night, or when I am just between sleep
and awake in the mornings, I feel his presence somewhere in the house. Not
exactly hear him breathing, but almost, just the feeling of him being
here in the apartment.Then I jerk awake and tell myself, not always silently, that I am absolutely alone in this apartment and there is no way anyone could be in here but me. It is not scary, just disconcerting.
This is the only place and time this has happened to me. Maybe this happens for the same reason I seem to miss him more in this country. This is the world we lived in. Costa Rica wasn't.
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Also about the time G & P were visiting us on Wildwood Lane and they were in the kitchen, all three of them slurping coffee, and I was in bed wanting to kill them all.
ONE-BREASTED WOMAN seeks one-armed man.
FRISKY COUGAR, 84, seeks dude, 72 to 76, share walks from parking lots to doctors' offices. Must like detailed descriptions of illnesses; enjoy matinee "naps"; daytime driving essential; relishes grandchildren's pictures. Limited flatulence, clacking teeth ok. Don't anticipate LTR
examples of early personals on New York Review of Books
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