Meant to be on Discord but too long.

Oh dear KiKi, please. Take me off your worry list. I know it is hard for you ~ not to just send me a day bed or whatever else I might mention. You have done that in the past and I did appreciate those things and all your services in moving me and arranging and cleaning up my messes. But I will be fine. That part is serious. I was not joking about the electric knife and the mattress. Linda and Diane did it and it worked great.  I just made my last big purchase with the double mattress. Over a K. Which I may keep on using, but I think I will want a little more space and a day bed would allow that.  I've spent money like it was water because I had it and the rent here allowed it and O Mr. L would not accept my extra money, but that has changed and I will change too. In years past I was able  to watch pennies and make things last and work around problems. I come from a long line of adapters. Well, at least from a father who could make anything work. And lived years with a husband who took what was available and didn't complain. Before we had plenty, we had to spend carefully. Now, I'm just going back to that state and way of living in my old age. I am kind of excited to be doing it. I have always been a kind of guilty feeling inside me about living among  so many have nots and  feeling rich.  That comes from JoJo too. Now I am back where I started and am glad. I am happy in my situation. I like to figure out how to make what I have work for  what I want. I do not need anything I can't have. I will repeat, I do not need anything material that I don't have. The only problem I have is my uncooperative head and unwilling body and nobody can buy that away. I feel fortunate to have the wherewithal that I enjoy and thank your father for making that possible. All of my kids, have that ability, and, I suspect, that sense of guilt for being among the lucky ones who did well. White. Intelligent. Ambitious. Self Sufficient. 

Good work ethics. American. Two parents. Intact family. Healthy.  Good educations. Childhood healthcare. Grandparents who loved you. Opportunities not open to everyone. And from JoJo especially, a gift of relating to other people. A lot of that is pure luck . Now, I love you. I want to be able to bitch and whine on this site and not have any of you feel like you have to rescue me. I will ask for help that I need. If I become non corpus mento, then you have my permission  jump in and have me put away or, preferably, killed. Until then, quit worrying about me. Just love me as I do you. Sigh. That took me forever .