Three thirty in the morning on Feb 2, 2018
Kelly has sent me the picture I tried to describe in my last comments, and I can see many more pieces to describe. I think I could get to 1000 words maybe. There is yellow flowered wallpaper in the background, and yellow flowered curtains that I made and Barbara Brown thought clashed with the walls. He is sitting at the round oak table we bought in Brown County on a trip there one fall day. On the table, his hand is resting upon, it is one of those portable radios he always had. Often he had two or three at a time. I never knew how he knew but they always had good reception and good tone and worked in the car or truck or house. I wish I could find one like them today, but I think the stations would be different now so it wouldn't be the same.
He is wearing a Los Angeles billed cap, which hides part of his face and his bald shaven head. Not shaven like today, to hide the baldness, but shaven for comfort and convenience. And his scalp would have been brown, like his face. He looks as if he just sat down after a softball game, which he may very well have, and is daring someone with a camera to capture his glare in a photo. It is that glare that once made me weak in the knees. Finally, now, after many years, it only brings me the memory of weak in the knees and, unless I dwell on it, which I choose not to do any more, the actual weakness has gone. But the memory is there.
The piercing eyes are still full of life and some sort of challenge. He was a ...well, you can see from the photo what he was.
I just got up to go look at the picture that I put on the front of my frig after getting it from Kelly yesterday. It was a total surprise and a pleasure and a relief to have it. The mustache, which I had forgotten, makes it more poignant. In fact, I didn't remember the wallpaper or the curtains or the hat or the shirt or the table or the radio because the effect of the eyes was so strong. It is the intensity in the brown eyes that make the picture, for me, so affecting.
He is wearing a red and gray baseball (I think) shirt and has a brown mustache.
I wonder who took the picture and if he had been playing softball. I wonder if the look was meant to be scary or seductive or just indifferent. I wonder how it would feel today to see that man. Well, that's only 465 words. It might be worth a thousand if I were a better describer. Dip could probably do a couple thousand at least.
Now, rather than a portable radio I have and Echo. And a card table rather than hand make oak. No wallpaper, no curtains, no young softball player either.
And life goes on.
On the same day I received the photo in the mail from Kelly I made reservations at a hotel in French Lick for February 14 for a Valentine's Day/night mini vacation with a friend here who has become very close. We plan to visit a casino and I will gamble for the first time ever. I am nervous because my image of a casino comes from Oceans However Many and I don't know what people actually wear in those places. I do know that bus loads of people from old people residences go regularly, so how fancy can it be? Still, I will be glad to have had the experience and to know what casinos are like.
I will drive, as my friend in legally blind and cannot. This will be a special trip. I haven't driven on an adventure for years and am eager for the trip and I have a sidekick. I have AAA because I am a worrier and my car is 13 years old now and this assuages my fears of being lost on a highway in a snowstorm on the dark cold night without boots and unable to hike through the blizzard and the mounds of snow pursued by a band of hillbillies intent on mayhem or worse. An ounce of prevention and all that jazz. Car and driver are the extent of my contribution to the trip. Except, of course, for my scintillating presence.
All this is contingent upon there being no inclement weather and will begin at sunrise, which, by the way, will not arrive until 7:38 AM.
PS: I still can't figure out how to post to alicelee adlib from this computer.I am becoming familiar with other functions and do not hate it anymore. It is the best keyboard I've had so far. Although my hands position themselves wrongly and I hit one key to the left with my right hand a lot. I can do stuff when my head is awake and I am patient enough to spend the time to search around.
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So, re the trip to French Lick. Of course I have been obsessing about everything from clothes to car trouble to catching the flu (not me, my friend) and what to do with a six foot two, two hundred pound, dead body should the occasion arise.
On a more practical level, my friend asks if my spare is aired up. Crap. I have no memory of a spare tire in this car.
I remember where we were when we got this car from Daphne after I had wrecked the Escort on North Keystone after driving Melanie back to her mother's house after Mel had spent the night with me. and I remember that we had already got Wendall's diagnosis and lived in the apartment complex near Tom and Pat at Emerson and Southport Road, I think. I go out and open the hatch. A fifty pound bag of salt Ivy delivered to me when I lived at 14th and Delaware and was stuck in the ice at the curb in front of my apartment building--this must have been, holy cow, 2013??
Let's see came home 2012, 1 year each at Riley Towers, 14th and Delaware, Cloverdale, Satelite apartments, West Side Plaza, add on a few months in California. Sounds about right.
So anyway I drive around to the dumpster behind this current apartment building (Crestwood West) and back the car onto the grass beside the tossed out pizza boxes and abandoned TV cabinets, garbage and dumped ashtrays--which make me feel a little less guilty about dragging the bag of salt out onto the grass and leaving it there. At least salt is biodegradable and surely the squirrels or the rats this being winter will nibble the bag open. Salt is degradable, right?
I move the three 12 packs of toilet paper I store in the trunk in case of emergency to the back seat, along with the cart I use to haul groceries into my apartment. I lift the cover over what I hope is a spare tire. Virgin. Never been touched. Tools in pristine condition, jack, lug wench, and under that tray, a brand new thirteen year old Mickey Mouse Tire.
This makes me realize what a sheltered life I have lived since we bought this car. Never even removed the spare tire.
I can recall changing tires—a tire—on Wildwood Lane at dawn and on an interstate while on a road trip in previous years and they loom as big deals—at least the one on the interstate. I had to unload a trunk full of luggage, cooler, food, I had probably run away from home again.
But those last years, after Wen got sick, never. I am grateful in retrospect.
So, since the tire has not been touched in its life, do I need to have it checked for air? Or can I assume that since I have AAA road service that whoever comes to change my tire will be prepared to fill the spare with air? Should I call and ask AAA? Could I find this on line so I don't alert AAA to an impending service call? (What is the difference between a pending and an impending thing?) I'll look it up.
And this is still 10 days away and may not happen anyway if it snows.
I realize that this rambling has been a look inside my head on my seventy ninth birthday. Pathetic. No wonder my apartment is a mess.
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