continued from discord ....talking to myself...health and strength

 I do feel better without so many carbs; not so weak. I still don't know about the hi fat, but in 900 to 1000 calories a day, which is more calories than I need, (my daily exercise consists of getting out of bed), there's not much room for the calories of fat anyway. I do miss the bagels from Zabar's,  Ruffles, and Snickers most. If I can make it until dark, I can make me go with just Diet Cokes till I can sleep. 2AM or so.  On strong days I lift 3lb weights  for arm and shoulder maintenance.  Do some step-ups on an 8-inch step I bought.  I only make it to the t-mill once a week, if that. 

I think that if I could lose about 40 pounds,  I could move easier and stronger and be less tired.  I do know it will take exercise to achieve that. 

I have cut out all meds that might make me tired. No sleeping pills, nothing but B/P and thyroid meds.

I plan to try  to increase activity a little each day. My goal is to get back to at least 15 minutes a day on t-mill and a whole body routine of body weight exercises. Yoga or tai chi with u tube  videos. 

These are random because right now I am concentrated on losing the weight and I tell myself that all I must do today is stick to the calories restriction. We'll see how this works out. 

Every day a new plan. Every day a new hope.

I remember my dad going through every-day-new-plan-thing and saying, "I'm down to 198",  or whatever. I remember how uninteresting it was to me. He always looked the same to me, and it didn't matter anyway because he was old. At least father-old. 

So, to still be doing this at 83 sounds silly, even to me, who is doing it. But it gives me a goal, some reason to...

  IDK. I'm just talking to myself. I do it in my head all the time. This is just overflow onto bits and bytes and give me some activity that feels like  doing something.

I read things like this.  Helps a little.

"If you'd like to do something bold with your life, you will have to choose to do something bold on a specific day.

There is no perfect day. There is no right time. For the trajectory to change, there has to be one day when you simply make the choice."